Yeah it's probably because you ride for yourself. I cant really push myself alone, and don't think it's that fun either. I mainly ride with 2-4 friends which only one of them are riding trials, the others are riding bmx. But we push ourselfs and have a blast really! Try filming too because it makes you want to do lines better! And ONLY ride for fun!
Post a video on here please!
I've been riding like 6 months too, here's my video: