You're going to get sick of topics like this, but this is something that I really need some help on.
And given you weren't all wankers to the guy that made the "thoughts on self-harm" topic It's given me some confidence to talk about it to someone.
I've found the rest of the internet to not have much help and before going to a GP about it I'd prefer to get some help off you here. Plus (and this is going to sound terrible) but I don't actually feel comfortable enough to talk about this to my parents :/
So for the past few years I've felt down, and we all feel down from time to time so I've just dismissed it all the time :/ But it's not until the past 5 months or so I've found it getting much worse up to the point of having regular suicidal thoughts.
I've got no motivation to do anything, my college work has got worse simply because I've just done none of it, I've been threatened to be taken off every course which just keeps making me feel worse. I've even lost motivation in my riding, I've found when I get asked on rides I'm always coming up with excuses as why not to go,
Don't get me wrong, I still go on rides, and I still love riding, but when I'm not riding, although spending an unhealthy amount of time on trials-forum, I'm not eager to get out again :/ Which isn't as it used to be since I had sleepless nights excited about rides before :/
I've been a dick to all my friends, lost some friends because of it.
Recently things have been looking up for me (had some incredible news) but it hasn't made me feel better, I was happy for a brief moment but just went back to my room and cried for no reason :/
Does anyone have any advise on how to deal with it? Before having to talk to my parents about it :/
And if anyone has guessed who I am please don't say anything negative or mention my name :/
I'm just glad there's a place like this I can come to for issues other than "trials" issues