i dnt mean to sound like an ass, but i was in the same boat except didnt stay with her, and wasnt with her as long (1 year n 4 months) but when i finished it for pretty much the same reason i regreted it after words (for a bit im fine now) as it wasnt till after i realised i didnt have her how much i loved her, i hope you get on ok and things go good for you