Going bigger=give you pleasure (the feeling that you look for...) You say you dont want to get bigger or tap higher. because thats not the problem..... I think if you realy get higher it would give you that feeling you had when you nailed 4 pallets sidehop first time. im stuck on 7 pallets sidehop for a long time. and i KNOW i will make 8 if i dont give up. i almost does everything to make my goal. Yesterday i bought weights so i can do squats.... maybe im crazy and i take it too serious? i dont know.... but 1 thing is shure.... to get higher makes you want to ride more... I can ride for hours on the same spot. just with some simple stuff.... i try to get up every single way its posible to get up. even if its easy to do a sidehop there, i try front to back, pedalup, tap, 180 sidehop, 90 degree front to back, hook?, sidehop to rear....etc etc etc... Try to ride with someone thats better than you. make youre self some goals. maybe be better than youre friend. Try compete with youre friend. u dont need to do big stuff. make lines in a natural area. Try riding places that you never been ridden before. if u realy want to get better (to make youreself real happy) try doing weights. Squat for example. You will get the taps higher and the sidehops bigger.... I get tired and bored often. but i try my best to dont give up. I always look up to TRA, CLS or what ever......they can always make me better in someway. i know that i never will make 10 pallets sidehop like CLS or TRA, but i want to see what im capable of. Im so lucky that i have a car and i can go to new places all the time. Thats a BIG plus. I can always find new spots to ride. Ive always been a "street rider". But lately ive been trying to ride natural. Just to learn something that im absolutely NOT god at.... I realy hope that you dont give up...