trying not to sound like a wanker here, but you said your not very good (havent seen u ride though) and yet you have bought a bike that is designed by pro competition riders for top riders. Loads of people seem to buy really nice xpensive bikes (pro comp bikes i.e XTP, Hydroxx, monty 221 Ti) too early in their riding career and beat the hell out of them, my advice would be to work your way up the range of bikes out there as you improve.