I'm in a really weird situation atm...I've been with my missus for about 10 months now, and these past couple of months haven't been the greatest, we argued shit loads, and just generally didn't get on. Lately things have been getting better but i still feel like i missing out...I've been hiding that i smoke for 7 months now and among loads of things i keep from her like when i go out etc, as she just goes mental if i do calling me up when I'm out with my mates in tears asking me to go home. And lately it's left me thinking am i happier with her or without? i mean i don't ride anymore cos I'm always with her, and she HATES biking of any kind....I'm supposed to be going to Ireland for Xmas this year then Paris for new years and our year anniversary, then off to Spain for a holiday in February...all this money i could have spent on a new bike etc...I'm just stuck. She gets protective if i say hello to another girl at college...I've lost so many good friends because of her. but i have some amazing times with her, i just cant see if I'd be happier with her or without? i don't think i have it in me to hurt her i really don't know what to do.