No matter how much you put it off it will catch up with you, didnt mourn for 10 months(lost my dad bout that time) but it does catch up with you, no matter how much you think to carry on and just get on with life, it will catch up with you. Not the best feeling in the world. So in answer to your question i think feeling the pain would be better, because life is full of experiences so its just one experience you have to go through. If you understand what I mean.