Thought I was going into hospital this morning for my knee and to hopefully get the 'you can ease back to normal' from them. What happened though was I had muddled up that appointment with a shoulder check up. Almost been a year since my last little cemi-dislocation thing. Today they just said what I knew they would which sucks. They'll give me an MRI, they'll refer me to physio and I'll probably end up having to get the same operation I had on my left shoulder. That would mean another two years worth of not riding or really doing any of the things I like doing and after four of those years I am just so fed up with it. And I had some stupid Indian doctor that I was really struggling to understand who, when I was telling him why I wasn't happy with his plan because it's prolonging everything, was just sitting smiling at me like a complete retard. Went through telling him how this whole issue has literally ruined my life and that I had to drop out of my college and move because of it and he's just smiling at me. I want to punch his face so much. I've had four dislocations now and I know the routine of physio, wait for it to happen again, physio, and then them saying only now is the surgery justified. Wish I could enjoy video games or some other sitting around hobbies but I'm just thinking about riding again all the time. My youth's just been wasted now because of my stupid body.
The more I'm getting annoyed the closer I am to just buying a bike and riding it. If it's all going to go wrong again I might as well get a few weeks where it's now just making me miserable all the time.